Hello!

Sorry it's been a while, to those of you who are so wonderfully checking back in. I have been struggling with an addiction to self-harm and bulimia. And, I have started the long process of dismantling those habits, and those addictions, and the emotions and things that caused them. I am dealing with them. Through God. Well, really He is dealing with them.

So, today, after having a serious talk with God about it all. I was given some missing pieces. Which is key to this post. I only started reading a few pages more into "Follow Me". But really, that's all I needed to confirm this. It's the part that ties the whole lesson together.

The sentence I left off on was: "What does repentance look like in their lives?"

Meaning us 'Christians' here in the Western part of the world.

When you think about worshiping something, you think about people who worship statues and dictators and things. Yeah, that is a form of worshiping, but God says that nothing is more important than Him. And if something in your life is taking precedence over him, than you are worshiping it. Because God doesn't share the stage with any one. 

So, those people who struggle with any addiction, whether it be porn, self-harm, eating disorders, sports, getting mad when things don't go how we think they should go, getting all worked up when things change, just stupid things we don't think about. Even our relationships; boyfriend/girlfriend, marriages, friends, if these things take place before God, and we all do it (obviously not intentionally I hope), it's worshiping that thing. Because God is the only one worthy of our devout attention like that.

So, that probably didn't make any sense, but that's okay.

I just kind of realized, over the course of the things I've been going through lately, that I had a problem, and I placed worrying about it and obsessing over it, before God. And I needed to talk to Him about it and get right with him. So I did. And I thought I would share this with you all. Thanks for reading guys. c:

Sincerely,
Me.